Constraint

By Gub (Eden Holme, 26 July 2025)

We have so

Little time 

Leaning against the empty carcass of the wind 

The day pulled short;

the tight string of

Life’s purse

The jewels

Of purpose

(Of meaning) 

Held, diminutive

In a bag of velvet constraint, 

As if our sole asset 

Were significance, 

Without which we would 

Perish 

As paupers 

But this is entrapment 

By ego of consciousness 

And not the source of light

In our being 

Meaning is but a flicker 

Of the projector’s 

Trailer,

The feature throws 

A bigger picture into space 

An expanse of story on which 

All things pervade, and sense 

Is senseless -

To follow such vastness 

We must be invert

Become what we are not, 

Exhale our something 

And become nothing 

With the oneness 

That is the gift the

Black purse hides 

The most valuable gemstone 

Is the uncut jewel,

Whose reflected light

Is never released…

Tilia

She dances on the beach in the rolling mist, 

Glistening legs

A small breath inside a giant exhale 

Every stranger she encounters 

is a promise of play

I watch on, as if given a chance 

to visit myself in a different childhood

Where I still trust

Where I move towards, not away

Awareness grows up and out 

like sweet pea tendrils on a cottage trellis in Solva

Until I have the point of view of the sun

A large pendulum marking small units of human time 

Cosmic arch above stone arches 

The past sings a Vierne lullaby in St David's Cathedral

But it is the young playing for the old 

Role reversal 

That marks the fall of civilisation

The sign of the apocalypse

will not be famine and pestilence

but the gaping mouths of 

ostentatiously ornate organs

silent in empty churches 

When there will be no master, apprentice

Nor congreation

We will have forgotten what the score was

Or what we worshipped in the first place

We will water our gardens

Rendered restless and mute

Like the last speaker of a dead language 

who cannot convey the way 'lime' - 'tillia' - 'tei'

invokes all at once 

tree and its blossom, 

The specific scent of summer,

The movement of the wind's visibility cloak 

longing and mourning 

a surge of the heart 

and a burial. 

 

Lullaby

By Gub (Eden Holme, 14 July 2025)

And when they say 

Truth is a circle 

Arriving as it does 

at the precise 

Point of departure 

It’s a path 

That returns

And Enriches 

Us Again

A Rediscovered

Trail

That destination 

Unsought,

not manufactured 

Comets

Don’t lie

Their  heavens

Herald

flight of angels 

passengers 

In benevolent 

Ruses

And time 

space 

And life 

That endless 

Speculation

Of god, of man,

Of whose muse 

Is whose ?

Let me die here

In the quiet of a night 

Sky

Blossomed  by a heatwave in 

Mid-July

The earths heat 

Keeps the icy 

Weight 

Of that dark celestial 

Berg 

At bay

And beneath my feet

My dog lies

Tongue stilled 

On jaws of

Sleep

And the Sun 

Not yet born

In the heat 

Of a new day …

If peace had a sound 

It would be a quiet whisper 

Of love

The chant of all the lullabies 

Sung to dying babes

The crisp white linen

That falls around 

A still corpse,

The lifeless 

Demure

Body that

ghosts 

Gift

The living 

Something 

To pray for

As if awakening 

From death had some purpose

When the passage of life’s

Reward is the bequest 

Of matter 

Back to our maker 

Ashes to dust 

And dust to ashes 

Each ember a star

In the fire ….

Now I know

By Sil (13th of November, Hereford)

This morning I stood on the door step and trimmed Scully's hair 

I thought of my husband mowing lawn in late autumn 

When grass blades have lost their exuberant thrust

A chore I will never have to do again

I remember touching Mia's fur a week before we put her down 

It was dry, greying and lifeless; she looked like a stuffed animal displayed in the natural history museum

Scully's fur, now a death shroud 

Is how how I know that it's time

I took the dogs for a walk along the river

Luna darted all over the place

Scully trotted gingerly along the narrow path, 

falling further and further behind 

And for some reason it felt like he was moving in real time

whereas I was caught up in the sped-up funeral march a the edge of the universe, 

where matter falls away from matter faster and faster 

Unravelling,

as if it were the fraying seam of a sweater when a child catches the loose end of a thread,

and keeps tugging at it

I stared right into the eye of the sun 

And said: 

This is my future

And yours, too, star

We're just riding biological trains that are moving at a slower pace

Watching my dogs die is how I know the destination

Is how I know the perfect darkness at the end of time

Route 66

By Gub (24th of January)

Life is a box of dirty tricks,

An old red can

So many things have kicked.

Rust on the outside

Bright tin within

It can carry fuel

But the cap leaks.

If we knew the road, 

knew which way

It lay,

The stops would be longer

The rush would cease.

More time to pray.

But our eyes are fixed on the 

Car in front 

Horizons' un risen

Prizes ahead 

Rewards on the side 

Are lay-by's 

Of delay

So many Miradors and 

Vistas unseen,  

Another time we tell ourselves; 

Another place 

Not today

Someone else's

Dream.

That's the case with

'route 66'

A journey that seems infinite 

Is but a short stretch 

Soon the carriageway narrows; 

To a single lane 

The distance ahead 

a fraction of what behind us

Lay...

Smiles, tears 

The laughter; shed,

Either remembered 

Or forever

Unfound

Hills,  valleys,

Snow capped peaks 

Blue sky ;

Clouds

Beaming

Or

Un glimpsed

Become part of eternity's sleep 

The red can's

paint, flakes of rust ..

Life's stains are miasma; 

Vital blemishes 

We now crave; 

Cling to the slightest 

Furrows in dust 

feverish searches for footprints 

in sand 

Seconds  to evidence 

That moment of being; 

Any sign 

We were here 

Shaping light 

and shadow 

The sun, dunes, a vulture rising above the castellations of the  Red Fort 

Another day

 - spared

Knowing 

What we cannot see...

And seeing what we

Could never know ; 

The world in a grain of sand

an eternity lost 

       and found 

In the palm of 

a hand .

Death did not..

By Gub (the 6th of May)

Death 

Did not do 

What death could, 

And extinguish all

Life in one blow.

He takes what he wants, 

In one’s or threes,

And sure; amidst occasional human battles

Multiples of these.

Over time 

Well all eternity, the 

Score he fells will run a trillion or more 

But these in aggregate 

Sound excessively dramatic 

In the fullness of infinity, they are but the gentle popping of candle wax around a universal wick.

A slow flow

Back into the tallow…

That feeds a continual flame

The prospector

By Gub (the 16th of May, Eden Holme)

The day 

Is overfull

Uncompleted

Tasks abound

I pull at rocks 

A Palaeolithic sifting

through time’s rubble 

Lowing like a bull 

From side to side 

My pendulum 

Moves nothing 

Forward 

The edge of each swing

Shapes a  parentheses

Between which my body and 

Mind rock 

Marking hours 

But without progress

The prospector

With no prospect 

Other than

To prospect

Then true treasure is not buried 

In the find 

But in the search?